My dad has been dead exactly one month. Month one = down, a blurry lifetime to go. Fell asleep on our (well, my) old ratty couch last...

Grief ramblings, week 3: Intuition is a damned thing. It shrieks out in a massive vat of all other complicated feelings and experiences....

I have always wanted to know the future. (Catastrophes. Men. Changes.) I have a habit of looking for signs everywhere. Sometimes I’m...

Mehhhh it’s more complicated than that. I have truly hated, well... probably just one person. I’ve been repulsed by a handful more. This...

YouTube decided that an Eckhart Tolle video should follow one of my favorite NDE interviews. Fucking Eckhart Tolle and his…...

Unfiltered grief thoughts: I have done an insane amount of personal writing during the last 5 years. Twelve diaries. There are thousands...

Sometimes I walk up to the mirror, give myself a little wink and sashay, and think: “untouchable… unreachable.” Then I give myself a...

#latenightthoughts #writing Anyone else feel me on the following? Sometimes I have this suspicion that I want nothing. Or at least...

Why do I write anything, do anything at all? A stupid question. Existing is hard. I don’t even look forward to sleeping because I have so...

#latenightwriting Has anyone else had some version of this? There’s a picture of us together with your family. Your arm is around me, and...

My birthday was Saturday. I’m gratefully 31. I bailed on a wedding today. The wedding of a friend I love. I meant well. I bought a dress...

I’m tired and it is late. Laying on the couch with Mal. Caitlin in her natural habitat. A tiny lizard🦎 appeared in the house today....

I have a tendency to throw a little too much star shaped confetti at special people. Only the MOST special. I want to squeeze every last...

I’m supposed to say something. I’m telling myself I’m supposed to say something. Use it or lose it? I feel dried up creatively. Damn! And...

Life status: Staring at the leg I didn’t finish shaving. Listening to the washing machine spin. Burning a “Gilmore Girls” candle from...

Life keeps getting sadder and sadder. Almost to an unbelievable soap opera level. Instead of processing sadness, I keep blanking out....

Am I strong, or just busy? Or is all of this “busy” keeping me strong? Didn‘t do enough reading this weekend. Paced around a lot. Slept....

I think every kind woman is beautiful (it’s all in the heart). So maybe in that sense most of us are the same. Women as a whole are very...

It's so much easier to shut yourself off from the world than it is to venture out and live with the possibility of getting hurt. I...

Blah freaking blah blah. Tired but writing anyway. Listening to some button in the dryer make “button in the dryer“ noises. CLANK! “I...