Damn tonight. I was just thinking of how bored and snowed in I was, and WHAM! A sudden mild fuck up (of mine) hit me in the face. And...

“I feel insignificant, lost, but exultant.” - Virginia Woolf Ugh… same, minus the last word. My world is SMALL. I’m cocooned. I made my...

Happy Tuesday to me. Happy, survivable… whichever. “Survivable“ is the new happy, actually. I’m astounded that I haven’t gotten COVID....

It’s a LAZY Sunday. My current background noise is Dateline - an episode set in Dallas. Recognizable landmarks! Wild. Only not really,...

Sitting here freezing in a towel and waiting for my serum-ed hair to dry. Current background noise: 600 pound life. I guess you could...

Unfiltered holiday  grief thoughts: I put on my most exciting pair of socks today, turned on this audiobook, and twirled around my...

Tuesday is 23/24ths over. One more day of work this week (tomorrow) and I’ll have my…. “holiday.” Quotation marks included because it...

My dad has been dead exactly one month. Month one = down, a blurry lifetime to go. Fell asleep on our (well, my) old ratty couch last...

Grief ramblings, week 3: Intuition is a damned thing. It shrieks out in a massive vat of all other complicated feelings and experiences....

I have always wanted to know the future. (Catastrophes. Men. Changes.) I have a habit of looking for signs everywhere. Sometimes I’m...

Mehhhh it’s more complicated than that. I have truly hated, well... probably just one person. I’ve been repulsed by a handful more. This...

YouTube decided that an Eckhart Tolle video should follow one of my favorite NDE interviews. Fucking Eckhart Tolle and his…...

Unfiltered grief thoughts: I have done an insane amount of personal writing during the last 5 years. Twelve diaries. There are thousands...

Sometimes I walk up to the mirror, give myself a little wink and sashay, and think: “untouchable… unreachable.” Then I give myself a...

#latenightthoughts #writing Anyone else feel me on the following? Sometimes I have this suspicion that I want nothing. Or at least...

Why do I write anything, do anything at all? A stupid question. Existing is hard. I don’t even look forward to sleeping because I have so...

#latenightwriting Has anyone else had some version of this? There’s a picture of us together with your family. Your arm is around me, and...

My birthday was Saturday. I’m gratefully 31. I bailed on a wedding today. The wedding of a friend I love. I meant well. I bought a dress...

I’m tired and it is late. Laying on the couch with Mal. Caitlin in her natural habitat. A tiny lizard🦎 appeared in the house today....

I have a tendency to throw a little too much star shaped confetti at special people. Only the MOST special. I want to squeeze every last...